Emotions

These last few months have certainly been an emotional roller coaster. The holidays without children are very depressing. One of the first things you think to associate with Christmas is family. I so want to be able to take my child to see Santa, make Christmas cookies with them, read them Christmas stories, and especially see their little faces on Christmas morning. This year was especially difficult after the failed adoption last year. It is hard knowing this year could have been different. His first birthday was December 16th, so that day, and the days leading up to it, were pretty difficult. I so wanted to be able to share that, and many other events, with him. The one thing that has given me hope, and helped me through this holiday season, is getting started with this new agency. We have so much to do to get ready to be presented to birth mothers. Things pretty much got put on hold with the holidays, but I am really getting geared up to get this process going. These next few weeks are going to be very busy. I am so excited to see what this year may bring. I am so praying that 2011 will be "the" year. I pray that this Christmas will be filled with all the joy that we have been missing for so many years.