A Bump in the Road

We have reached a bump in the road. Actually it is a HUGE bump, more like a wall, and we have to find a way to get over it or around it. Our birth mother had an "episode" Tuesday night, and she has left The Christmas Village. Right now we have no idea what is going to happen. She has gone to a relative's house which is several hours away. While she was here, she was getting medical care, and she won't have the kind of care she was receiving here. She was getting a progesterone shot every Wednesday to keep her from going into labor since she has already started dilating. Well she missed her shot yesterday, and from what I understand, once you get off the schedule, you can't go back and take it later. She is 30 weeks today, so it is just too soon for him to be born. She has been through a lot in the last several weeks, and I think it has just all caught up with her. I felt so secure with this situation that I was telling everyone and blogging about all the ways God was letting us know this is going to be our son. I just find it hard to believe that with all the miracles He has shown us so far, that this is over. I mean God has even let us know what He wants him named. There is so much more that has happened that I haven't even blogged yet. I have been trying to blog about each miracle in order to keep them all separate. I haven't given up hope yet, but I have to prepare myself just in case this doesn't work out for us. Connie, with The Village of Hope, has been in contact with her. She even spoke to her last night to make sure she arrived at her destination. One positive note is that she gave Connie her correct contact information, and she was where she said she was going to be. Connie is going to give her a day to rest, and then she will contact her to see how she is doing. Please be praying for all of us. The birth mother needs prayers that she seek God in her decisions. The baby needs prayers that he will not come until he is able to be born healthy. Connie needs your prayers while dealing with the birth mother and that God would give her the words to say to her. And we need your prayers for God to help us through this. There are several days ahead that are going to be really hard for me. Tomorrow I was supposed to be going with her to her Dr. appointment to see the sonogram. There had already been two showers planned for us. My work was giving a shower on November 10, and our church was giving us a shower on November 14. I was so looking forward to those events. I was finally experiencing things that I was beginning to think would never happen for me, and now, I just don't know what to think. I know God is in control, and if He intends for this baby to be ours, it will happen. It just hurts right now not knowing what is going to happen.

Cradle

A very special friend of ours bought a cradle for us last summer. She was going to an estate sale when she passed this elderly couple's home who had put a few things out for a garage sale. She said the cradle caught her eye so she stopped. She talked to the couple about the cradle, and the man had made it in hopes of one day having grandchildren. Since they haven't had any grandchildren he decided to go ahead and sell it. It is a beautiful wood cradle. My friend bought the cradle the morning of July 11th, and that night during revival I was saved. She said she was about to burst when I went up front. She told my mama that night what she had done, and it nearly killed her not to tell me.
Thank you Rita! We love you!

How God brought us to The Village of Hope

I have posted about this before, but I just want to remind everyone how God brought us to The Christmas Village and The Village of Hope. Last summer a friend of mine told me that his wife new of a woman who was going to give her baby up for adoption. He gave me his wife’s number and when I called , she was very encouraging and acted like she thought this would all work out. When you are so desperate for a baby, all you need is just a little bit of encouragement and you’re hooked. I just knew this was God answering our prayer, and this was going to be our baby. Little did I know that this was an answer to prayer, but just not in the way I wanted it to be. I talked to her a few more times and she was still being encouraging. Several weeks went by and I finally called her again. This time she was not being encouraging. She never came out and said it, but I could tell she knew something and this was not going to be our child. I had convinced myself this was going to be our child, so I was devastated this was not it. I got so depressed, and I was getting mad at God all over again. The next day I read Barbie Bassett’s blog, and it really opened my eyes. She was saying that when we take our eyes off of God, we are mince meat for Satan. Boy was he having a good time with me. I was reacting exactly how he wanted me to, and that was turning my back on God. Thankfully God stepped in and basically shook me. I normally wouldn’t have ever emailed Barbie, but I just wanted to let her know how her blog basically saved me from walking away from God. I told her a little bit about what we had been through, and when she replied to me, she let me know she is on the board for The Christmas Village. I had never even heard of them. She gave me the information on how to contact them, and we had our first meeting with them on September 11, 2008. At the time they were starting their adoption ministry, which is The Village of Hope. I can clearly look back now and see that had we not heard about that baby, and if I had not gotten so depressed, Barbie’s blog would not have meant what it did to me, and I wouldn’t be about to become the mama for this little boy. God uses situations that aren’t any fun to go through at the time to bring you to where He wants you to be.

Our first meeting with the birth mother

Yesterday Eric and I had our first meeting with the birth mother, mama R. It really was an awesome experience. Of course we were a little nervous at first, but she was really easy to talk to. She was telling us about what made her choose us. There were two items in our profile that really let her know we were the ones. Those two items were not in our profile when we turned it in Sept. of 08. We were asked a week ago Tuesday (Oct. 6) if we wanted our profile shown to this birth mother. We did, and she was supposed to see the profiles the next day, however she had to go to the hospital Tuesday night so they did not want to show her on Wednesday because they wanted her to be well rested and have a clear mind when she looked at profiles. They said they would show them to her on Friday. Well, on Friday she was not having a very good day, so they decided to wait until the next Wednesday (Oct 14). On Saturday I decided to ask Connie if I could get our profile back to add more pictures from this past year. When I called her, I just happened to catch her when she was about to leave to come to our area. It was perfect timing. That night Eric and I were watching a movie, and I just couldn't keep my mind on the movie. I kept thinking of writing a new letter to the birth mother for our profile. God took over and I believe I said exactly what He wanted me to say in that letter. I also added more pictures to the profile. The last picture was a picture of the baby's room. We bought our house from Eric's brother, and before Cody was born, Eric's dad painted Winnie the Pooh on the walls of the room. We had been using the room for storage so I never had a reason to take pictures of it. We put our house on the market back in the spring, so we put up a baby bed and put a rocking chair in there for potential buyers to see. If we had not put our house on the market, I would never have had a picture of that room to put in our profile. The two things that made her pick us was the second letter I wrote, and the picture of the baby's room. If the things had not happened last week to put off her seeing the profiles, we would not have had those items in our profile. God knew what we needed in there to make her feel connected to us. This is just one example of the miracle of God bringing us together with mama R.

I'M GONNA BE A MAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I keep saying it over and over, I'm gonna be a mama, hoping it will sink in soon. A birth mother looked at our profile on Wednesday, and she picked us! From the very beginning, I have wanted to be able to see God's hand in putting us with the child we are to adopt. Well, my prayers are being answered in a BIG way. Connie, the lady with the agency, said she wished I would have told her that so she could have been prepared. There is no doubt that God has picked this child for us, and us for him. Oh, and by the way, this IS the sign from God not to go with that other agency. I found out about this on Tuesday morning, and I had planned to mail our application to that other agency Tuesday afternoon. Boy, talk about slapping me in the face with an answer. Wow! I will post more about how God is working in this later because I want to be able to tell our church family before I go into too much detail. The news right now is that we will be getting a baby BOY, and he will be born in December. That is the BEST Christmas present I'll ever receive. God knows my desire to be as involved as possible with this child, and the birth mother has already said she would like for me to go to the rest of her Dr. appointments, and guess what???????? I GET TO BE IN THE DELIVERY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so overjoyed. I get to see our baby born. We will meet the birth mother this Saturday, so please be praying for us. I know this is going to be a very emotional time for all of us. I can't wait to see her belly and know that is my son in there. I will post more after we tell our church on Sunday.

A sign from God

God did give us a sign about the agency situation. We will not be signing up with the other agency. It was a definite answer to our prayers. We know without a doubt He wants us to stay put. Whenever I would think about changing agencies, I would always think, "Be still and know I am God".

More information to come....SOON!

Prayer Request

Please pray for Eric and I as we are making a decision about signing up with a different adoption agency. The agency we are with is great, but they are small and new. We have been with them for a year now. My grandmother mailed me a newspaper clipping this week about an adoption agency. We are now looking into that agency. I just want to be with whoever God wants us to be with. Please pray God will let us know what He wants us to do. I will update next week about what we will be doing.