The latest in our adoption process

I am going to try to make a long story short, but I just want to fill you all in on what has happened over the past couple of months. The Saturday before memorial day, Eric and I ran into Connie, with The Village of Hope. We were at a Wal-Mart on the other side of town, and it is one that we rarely go to. She said she couldn't believe she was running into us that day because she had just been talking to the birthmother that we had been working with last year. She had just talked to her 3 times that morning. The plan was that on June 2nd "R", the birthmother, was to be going to get Matthew from the lady who had been keeping him. Connie did not indicate at that time that "R" was going to get him because she had decided she wanted us to have him. She just said that she was going to get him and bring him back to MS. Needless to say, even without her saying anything, I was already getting my hopes up again, as hard as I was trying not to. The lady who was keeping him had already indicated that she wanted to keep him, and when "R" got up there to get him, the lady called DHS. With DHS involved, and us being in another state, the odds were stacking up against us, but I was holding on to the thought that this was finally it. The mother finally wants us to adopt him, and I just knew they would allow her to decide who would raise him. A court date was set for July 26. Of course I was hoping everything would get worked out before the court date, but that was not to be the case. The plan was that Connie, her husband, and the lawyer were going to be present for the court date. "R" had kept in touch with Connie until the end of June. Since "R" didn't have a phone, and she had been staying in a shelter, Connie had no way to get in touch with her. "R" has always kept in touch with Connie. Even when she left back in October, Connie knew exactly where she was going and as she moved around, she still let Connie know where she was. It is not like her to just cut off contact like that. To my knowledge, Connie still hasn't heard from her, and it has been well over a month now. I am really worried that something has happened to her. Needless to say, without "R" to say she wanted us to adopt him, we didn't stand a chance. I just knew this was going to be it. I was so disappointed when it didn't work out again. This whole process had been the biggest emotional roller coaster. I'll never forget the day she picked us. That was the happiest day, and only two weeks later it all came crashing down when she ran off. In January she had decided she wanted us to have him, and only a few days later, she allowed the people around her to talk her out of it. We have basically been strung along since October, not knowing what is going to happen, and hoping so much that he would come home to us. This time at least we have closure. We don't know, and may never know what happened with in court. I just pray that Matthew will be in a loving, Christian home, and not be moved from place to place in "the system".
At this point we just don't know what direction God is going to lead us in on this journey to adopt. Right now I just want to give up, because it just feels like it isn't ever going to happen for us. I am tired of hurting and worrying about it, but I still have that maternal need for a baby. I feel so incomplete without children. Please pray that God will lead us, and for His will to be done.